I am absolutely a hyper aware human. I watch others as deeply as I watch myself. Every facial expression, breath, body movement, and especially the way you carry yourself.

Yes, I’ve always been this way. It used to be a curse because I wasn’t just hyperaware, I was incredibly mean to myself. Every single thing I did would be under a magnifying glass and I would question my every move.

Now with time and experience, I definitley look at it as a blessing. My motto recently, observe don’t absorb. You have to protect that shit. Every single person does NOT deserve the same version of you. You get what you give.

Do I influence the energy in every room I walk into? You bet your ass I do. Here’s the funny truth. Before I walk into any building, house, activity, whatever.. I ask myself, what is my intention with going in here. The answer is usually (always), to make every kind person feel seen, to smile at those who deserve it, to stand tall and to have an exuberant aura that makes the best of other people show up. Wow, heavy right. Heavy is the head that wears the crown my dear.

Back to todays topic, energy. I was doing my heel stretch on the bosu ball yesterday and it really had me thinking about centering myself. Physically to stand on one leg and hold the heel of my foot stretched out and to be balancing on a bosu ball, you have to be stacked and centered properly. Or guess what? Your ass is going to fall.

Now this got me thinking. This scenario can be applied to anything. Especially, mentally and emotionally. If I am faced with an argument, a stressful situation or someone else is throwing icky energy onto me. My first step isn’t to react. I have to first center myself and have a level head, a strong base if you will. Because if I kick up my emotional leg and I’m not balanced…you guessed it, I will fall.

How to start practicing this. No one has an actual hold over us, unless you allow them to. No one can make me react or take away my energy, unless I let them. Also it’s fun as fuck to look at someone and say “are you okay?” when they want a reaction out of you. Or to simply give away the single thing they want, your attention.

As I get older, I’ve realized that you truly do become wiser. My goal is to be the energy I want to see in the world. I dimmed my light for so long because I was afraid. I don’t know of what exactly but I’ve recognized that I was holding myself back.

I’ve started to dance again. Just anywhere. In the gym, walking from my car, in the bathroom. Because who gives a fuck! None of us are getting out alive, so be unapologetically you and protect your ENERGY.